Every time I try to heal myself I poison myself a little bit Because of the urge to live To see the outside of this pit Every time I try to poison myself I find on it some healing Just when I think it's the end Look, I'm still breathing! Being alive Pleasure and agony Instinct tells me to survive But reason slowly kills me Being alive Pleasure and agony Instinct tells me to survive But reason slowly kills me Looking for something Something worth living for Like a sunny Sunday morning And a new world to explore Looking for something Something worth dying for It can't rain all the time, I know But Lord, here comes more water, much more! Being alive Pleasure and agony Instinct tells me to survive But reason slowly kills me Being alive Pleasure and agony Instinct tells me to survive But reason slowly kills me It kills me... Kills me Painful pleasure Of being alive The reason keeps the pressure And instinct commands me to survive Being alive Pleasure and agony Instinct tells me to survive But reason slowly kills me Damn reason Fucking reason Haha... Just kiddin' Everyone dies someday, right? So let the reason be my killer